"TRUE [False] LOVE"

Emotions can be the best to have and the worst to have at times. If only happiness, joy, and excitement is all we could feel...unfortunately emotions come with hurt, pain & anger.Right now ive been going through a break up of 4yrs. That relationship brought me good times but mostly bad. Ive noticed alot of females (including me) stay in relationships that ARENT worth it. WHY? We're worth so much more than that. We waste our time on men i mean BOYS that arent worth it. In the end we're heartbroken and blame ourselves. Love is a complicated thing but it should NOT hurt in any kind of way. If your spending your nights crying..breaking up to making up every other week, chasing away his sidelines etc. its not "TRUE LOVE". I went through alot - not that i regret the 4 yrs spent with the person but that i should have walked away the first strike. Men catch on to things. If he's constantly repeating the same out of hand behavior & you keep feeding into the "SORRY" & "IT WONT HAPPEN AGAIN" and you go back - 8 out of 10 times he WILL continue. As females we need to stop it and realize our self worth is more valuable then ANY penis. There REALLY is more fish in the sea. It just takes time to find them..or them find you.

Monday Nights

What a long day! Went bowling today with the sister...thats the monday night spot.Why?Because u bowl for a dollar! Itss packed, you see everyone from your old middle school friends to the grown friends you have now. I LOST really bad like always though..smh its just not my thing. Mcdonalds had a promo where you BUY A BIG MAC and get a another one for a PENNY! Seeing as thats my favorite sandwhich at mcdonalds i had to stop by & stuff my face lol. Then walmart just to walk around and be silly.I really think walmart is the best place to go late nights.Today was what i needed after being sooooo frustrated yesterday.I also found out someone who i thought was a good friend was being disrespectful behind my back. Even though it was a"joke" you know that saying theirs always the truth behind a JK [Just Kidding]. No biggie just going to keep my distance. Some people gave me some feedback about my last rant blog. .some took offense to it but in the end i was simply being REAL&UNCUT like the title of my blog is ! Maybe this will help others reevaluate themselves to be a better friend & cut it out. Neways just wanted to blog about my Monday day/night..tired & no school tomorrow

SLEEPING IN TIL THE AFTERNOON:)

- xoxoxo <3

Friend Or Foe?

Sigghhhhhhhh! Where do i start? Valentine's Day is officially over! YAY! lol my vday was bad..until i recieved a phone call from my godfather wishing me a happy Valentine's day :) . Its the little things like that i appreciate alot. I have sooo much to say about why my vday was horrible but i rather cut straight to the point of this blog. The title is FRIEND OR FOE for a reason. I dont kno if its just me but as the years go by im noticing alot more friends turning into ENEMIES & its really sad. Where's the FUCKING loyalty? Since when do LOYAL friends bring people you have beef,drama,issues,hostility etc. with around to cause more drama. If i know my friend(s) have a problem with "sally" lets say, WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY would i invite "sally" to go out with me & the friend. I KNOW they had issues but yet i chose to make things uncomfortable for my friend? Would you say thats a friend or instigator? At times i ask myself do i ask too much from my friends? But then i remind myself i DONT! Just a LISTENING ear and good advice..doesnt have to be the best just something. 98% of the time, i never get in what i send out in return. People can always come to me & get whatever friend quality they need..but when it comes to me going to them..PSHHHH might as well talk to my damn self. Im NOT the perfect friend.but shit im way BETTER then the ones thats out in this world. This is where i shut myself off from everyone,smile like everything is okay & secretly hold in the anger i have inside. Why? because when i do tell someone all i get is "oh your so sensitive" or "Oh watever" with a careless attitude. But i cant knock the one who has given me a listening ear ALWAYS..my BESTFRIEND HANY. THANKS


In the end i guess im the only one who still is a real friend & thinks about others feelings.

THE END...SideNote: Really longg..but had to be said.

Blog Virgin

First off , HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY to everyone - single & taken !

Today i popped my blog cherry and made a blog :) .My first one ever, i thought about it before but never really had the courage to actually try it because i'm sure nobody is really going to read this. But this year im trying to take risks..& try things i normally wouldnt do.2 months and i havent made much progress lol .Oh well change doesnt happen over night or sometimes even over weeks, months, years etc. Neways im going to end my first blog [smiles] by just listing a few facts about myself.

- im known as pookie [nickname given by an ex].

- i turned 18 july 20th ; making me a cancer.

- Majoring in Psychology ; in my 1st yr of college.

- Obsessed with Hello Kitty & Marilyn Monroe [R.I.P]

And thats about it...just gettin use to this so be patient with me...many more interesting blogs coming soon :)

xoxoxo ♥